I am an absolute plethora of feelings lately. My entire past has decided to come back and bite me in the butt. However, it’s not a bad thing. It’s just a strange thing. And I’m sure, a God thing.
I keep feeling like I want to write it all out but when I begin, it seems words don’t come. This is sort of like being in limbo between the past and the present. Two different lives. I would never choose to go back. I feel a bit like Lots wife. She couldn’t stop herself from looking back at the life she was leaving behind. For her it ended tragically in a pillar of salt. For me, it’s not so cut and dry. There are regrets and there are feelings of gratefulness. Had I not gone through all I did I would not be who I am today. I would not have the strength I do now. I would not have the life I have now. I would not have the understanding and loving husband I have now. I would not have my Simon or Arimi. Who I was, what I went through, was only the pathway to where I am. No regrets for that. None whatsoever.